the deep kiss of change

i've always been in a love/hate relationship with change. on one hand, i love that comfort zones are not made of indestructible materials, and that change is a catalyst that turns the fear of a journey, into the best decision you've ever made. i also hate that change takes things away from you, things and people that you've loved, and in most cases you are the one that ends up leaving them behind, thanks to change.

but i was reminded of a lesson i'm forcefully learning, when a soul sister posted this on instagram today

Lesson: no one can, and will (effectively) change until their natural progression is ready for it.

i've spent years being told by other people, and by my own heart, what i should do, how i should change, and when change is the incorrect term for evolve, but it's now, that my change and evolution is manifesting, simply because now is the right time.

a past love interest came to visit me a few days ago, and we sat and talked for a bit, we talked about our kids, we talked about our respective relationships, our past with each other, and most importantly our growth and maturity over the years, it was like we were meeting for the first time all over again. i was sharing with him, how my thought processes regarding romantic relationships has changed drastically over the years, and more so in just a few months, and he commented "that's why we were never going to work out". it simply wasn't the right time (among a few other things)

when it comes to change and our natural progression, timing is absolutely everything! the emotion, intellect, and will must be aligned for any progress to be effective, not only must we want it, but we must come to a full understanding of why we want it.

i've always wanted to travel the world, and be introduced to the beauty and people outside of my immediate world, but now that i've been blessed with babygirl, i'm ready. i'm ready to pack up my life and my accomplishment and experience the world with her. she makes me ready to want to change, and evolve, my natural progression is aligning, and the pursuit of love makes me ready...our first stop is Montreal, QC for CFSW!

i have this feeling in my butterfly ridden gut that i'm beginning an amazing journey, one that i've dreamed about, and now i'm actually ready for.

love.